Our Lives Now
December 14, 2011
I haven’t been on here in such a long while but I have been needing to update everyone. I apologize that it has been so long. The holiday season has been very tough on my whole being, partly because I miss my Joshua terrible and partly because that is what grief does. It rears its ugly head and consumes those it targets. Sometimes it is unrecognizable and when that happens, it is the hardest.
I do have some very exciting news though! Kelli is 16.5 weeks pregnant and yesterday we found out we are having a girl! Her name is Samantha Grace Campbell. It is exciting and both Kelli and I are amazed that we are having another baby. We have gone to see the specialist again since Joshua had so many issues and so far Samantha is issue free. Praise God! I still can’t help but think about Joshua and how it seems unfair that he had to be so “unique” but I am thankful for only good news this pregnancy. It is very hard to go back to the specialist though as well. We love the doctor there and she is amazing but there are so many horrid memories that are haunting me in the background that I come out of the place exhausted with a headache. Our doctor is very ecstatic to give us good news that she gave us hugs and told us to go celebrate hahaha. So far, Samantha has no signs of Down Syndrome, heart defects and the diaphragm looks to be intact. Of course over the next 4 or so months, everything will watched closely but so far so good! It looks like Matthew will actually have a sibling to play with this time around praise God. Thank you guys for all your continued prayers and support. I know a lot of people don’t really understand what we go through on a daily basis but continued prayer is always needed. I’m just glad most people can’t relate to us, and for those of you who can, I am very sorry from the bottom of my heart and I will continue to pray for all those that do understand. We continue to struggle through this life but God has been good and has given us the strength to manage through life up until this point. Without Him, I would be utterly lost.